Beautiful moments are worth living for

"fiction is the truth inside the lie, and the truth of this fiction is simple enough: the magic is real." -Stephen King

I have always sought to express this idea. A couple years ago i found this quote, and it has been one of my favorites ever since.

I find the magic in my life in small moments which might seem silly or inconsequential. I have always seen love as something smaller and yet infinitely more essential than most people i know. And by that i mean so much...i mean loving life, i mean loving food, i mean loving family and friends and hopefully someday loving "someone". but that's really not essential, because the part about love that is essential, is that you feel it and express it. it has very little do with having it felt about you, though god knows that is a moment and a feeling worth embracing and loving as well. what I'm trying to say is this...when people say we throw around the word love too much....I COULD NT DISAGREE MORE!!!! as cheesy as it sounds...love is the only thing in this world worth living for, and it is the only thing that will save us. and no one in this world will be happy until they stop waiting for love to find them and just love the things they truly love.

I love PIZZA...i love it!!!! and i love my family... and its a truly Amazing thing! It is so simple and tiny and inconsequential...BUT HUGE at the same time. more important and more essential than.................anything

I love life!!! i want to throw my head back in reckless abandon and embrace every last speck of it I want to love all that i can about it, and i don't want to hold back because love is something you save up for some highly unlikely or undeserving individual. Fuck that.

I love the rain!!
I love the feeling of water pouring over your skin. i love the feeling of being surrounded by the weather and the elements. this isn't a small feeling, this is enormous.

I love God!!!
and i don't care what anyone says. There is nothing in the world like throwing your arms up in surrender, your head to the heaven, screaming at the top of your lungs, and letting go of everything. having complete faith that its out of your hands and in the most capable hand possible. Letting go of all the worries all the doubt and all the hate and just being. living in complete sync with ...life. and feeling LOVED, but more essential, feeling like part of love.

I love being barefoot!!!
i love sand beneath my toes, and waves around my ankles. i love the smell of wet grass as i walk over it. i love the feeling when i first put my feet on the cold floor in the morning.

I love food!!!
i love biting into a ripe peach, the sweet smell and taste and feeling as it fills my mouth. i love cooking, and i love when i start to understand food in some small way. I love pickles and olives and lasagna. I love eating with friends. i love eating with my family. i love when a taste surprises me and enthralls me. I love making friends with old enemies...like mushrooms.

I love travel!!!
I love meeting "odd and flawed and worn out" people and i love the impact they have on me. i love knowing Ive impacted them in some small way. I love new places and new tastes and new feelings . i love the hope that comes with travel, and the feeling that anything is possible.

I love laughing!
Head thrown back in pure joy. pure abandon.

I love my friends!!
you guys amaze me in so many ways. you are so much more than you could ever know.

I love the unexpected!!
i love finding myself in unlikely moments. I love finding all my other loves in those moments. I love finding something new. I love finding something old.

I truly LOVE all these things!!!! and really i could go on forever....but i assume you have gotten the drift and maybe a whiff of the passion in what im saying.

I love the magic in life!!!
and ive only skimmed the surface

These things mean everything to me and some of them are so common place, but these things, and these small moments are worth living for....or so i think!

News from the Lawn Guardian

So this is the view from in front of my house. this photo was taken two years ago...take note of the beautiful GREEN lawn. somehow it went to shit since i was last here for a summer. I have therefore taken it on as my summer project. i will rejuvenate the lawn. It shall be green again!

the leaves are coming out here and you cant even imagine my excitement. this is very exciting for me. everything is covered in a beautiful green haze. its the most wonderful time of the year.

in other news i have a surprise day off today. huzzah! excellent for me. and tomorrow is my Friday. huzzah HUZZAH...I'm going to skagway this weekend!!!!!!

so that's short today....I'm off to nurture my lawn.

Much and effusive love to you all
guardian Lisa signing out

I've found a pair of rose colored glasses, and I dont care what anyone says, Im wearing them!

The Yukon seems to be the most beautiful place in the world to me right now. I cant get over the spectacular scenery. Its been here the whole time(you figure?), but Ive never really appreciated it till now.

I found these sunglasses in our car, and its been so sunny and bright, that necessity has forced me to wear the hideous safety goggle style contraptions. They have rose colored lenses in them and they make everything pop when i wear them. So yes, the title today is appropriate both literally and figuratively. I have been exceptionally happy with my surrounding. I have been seeing the Yukon in a brand new light. I have been enjoying my family and work in ways i never did before. perhaps i am seeing the Yukon in light of my time in nanaimo. Perhaps in the figurative sense, nanaimo became my rose colored glasses. On their own, a hideous head pinching contraption, but when looking through them(it) a brand new view on the everyday things around me.

so yes, I am happy. Two weeks here and things are falling into place. i haven't sleep so consistently sound in over two years. Ive created a two week rotating menu which my boss is exceptionally happy with. Ive had some of the best compliments on my work and personality that Ive ever had. and i just genuinely feel wanted and useful. Its been wonderful.

I think the best thing i have done is to come to terms with the fact that i will have NO social life for the next 4 months outside of work and family. I have no expectations and none of the feelings of entrapment which i had before. I'm looking forward to seeing you all when i return, and I'm keeping you in the back of my mind as my sanity and my consolation at the end of it all. But seriously, if it weren't for you guys, i wouldn't miss nanaimo at all...except maybe the river on a hot summer
day.

That being said.....I do miss you all IMMENSELY! Please keep in touch.
much love to you all.

A Quick Hello

so, i guess i should add a quick post. Im home in the yukon, and it feels sublime!!!

My weekend at grandma's was a weekend of torture, and i have never, NEVER been more glad to leave a place!

Home is wonderful. and its warm here(...crazy talk!) i might even say, it feel warmer here than in nanimo. though technically thats not true...but it possibly has something to do with the lack of humidity here. I spent wednesday in a tank and a sarong wandering around my property. Oh and robin and i went swimming in the lake...Yup theres still ice on it(nothing warm about that) but it was AWESOME!!

today hopefully im going to buy white stripes tickets...fingers crossed, its not a very large venue.

i start work next week...
I work here:
http://exceptionalplaces.com/

i know the website isnt anything special, but i love working there and im excited.

much love to you all