a review of the lost document

So, Ii wrote this big long post, but then my computer turned itself off (lazy friggin bastard!!!) so bla...to write again, or to leave this sad excuse for a post?!

im doing well. Its been a great holiday so far, and i still have 9 days. a couple days ago, rae and i had the great tequilla adventure (with chocolate, cigars, and hot tub) too much drunken fun! Yippeeee!!! yesterday we had a family dinner (my mothers early birthday dinner) at my old work. It was incredible to see my old coworkers! At one point those two men were the entirity of my social life! It was weird being served and not in the kitchen but after a glass of wine i got over it.

tommorow is my mothers birthday and our big open hose thing. I hope it goes very well and that i get to see some of the people i havent seen in ages.

then its new years eve and i guarentee that will be the low point of my holidays....NO THEATRES!!! i will miss you a lot. But...there will be fireworks, and i love fireworks!

so anyway folks, thats as good as it gets! a sort of quick run through of the lost update.

missing you greatly
much love!

BONJOUR!

So Im going to keep this short. Its been a good two days! The bonfire was awesome!!! we even sent off some fire works. Had another hot tub with my brother and we saw some pretty awesome northern lights (i dont think it would have been a trip home without them). Went to a movie with rae and colin last night after a hard day christmas shopping.....bla bla bla. My grandmother arrived today and that should add some interest to the christmas break (fingers crossed/prayers... whatever). we went to the yukon philipino(sp?) party this evening which is always interesting. tommorow will be all the last minute little things, as well as the traditional christmas caroling, and my all time favorite "a childs christmas in wales."

anyway...its 15 days till i return, and i know they are going to fly by. It will be hard to leave but, i will be SOO excited to see everyone by that point, that will make it worth it. I have a few new home options when i get back that i will have to explore more....my mothers friend knows someone looking for a tennant... and also, out of the blue, Tasia had a fight with her roomate...so that may be an option (and i even thought I was destined to live in that house! crazy deja vu!). Its going to be a little hard to explain it to christina, so im not sure how soon it will come about. but one things for certain, I wont make it through another semester if i continue living where i am.

anyway....nothing much new to report. Missing you all.
much love.
Merry christmas.

BONFIRE NIGHT!!

So i have spent the last couple days just relaxing. I had a super long hot-tub with my little brother (colin...the 20 year old) the other night. we had a good long chat. Talked about jobs and life and friends and drama etc. I showed him a bunch of the pictures (from parties and the like) and he said he was jealous. Crazy hey...jealous? But then i thought about it for a second, and i decided...yeah, it is something to be jealous of. We have some fun times indeed.

Yesterday we went tree hunting. While we were gone my mother and her friend baked cookies and made jelly. The house smelled amazing when we returned with our spoils. we found (okay, okay robin found) the best tree ever and my two brothers and i decorated it. It is beautiful...im so talented.

Tonight is solstice and we are having people over. We're going to light a giant bonfire and eat lots of good food. It should be cool. Im looking forward to it. Lots of family friends and people I haven't seen in a coons age. haha, i just said coons age! I think secretly, im a 80 year old woman.

Favorite Christmas/Holidays...Things:
-The tree in all its glory(especially the process of hunting it)
-Having my family all together(maybe that should be first on my list hey?)
-Holiday parties
-Nuts in their shells (my dogs love them too...ive been stepping on shells for the past two days)
-Winter activities... sledding, skiing, snow archetechture(sp?)
- The smells....good cooking, pine needles, hot chocolate, mulled wine, spices,
-THE FOOD..............GLORIOUS, GLORIOUS MOUNDS OF AMAZING FOOD!!!!!
- Being inside, nice and warm, and watching snow fall.
-Stockings. by far, still my favorite part of christmas day(and yes i still get a stocking...so do my parents!)
-Going christmas caroling (people give you cookies and alcohol!!...at least in my neighbourhood they do)
-crafts
-decorating
- alcohol...the yummy stuff and excuses for drinking lots of it
- Hot tub nights with old friends which include tequilla, cigars, and chocolate (life doesnt get better than that!)
- giving people gifts...especially when you find something just right for them.
- candle-light services (the prettiest and happiest church services of the year)
- That my brothers and i always go sledding on christmas day
- wrapping up in warm clothing(i love sweaters, scarfs, hats, and mittens!!)
- BONFIRES!!!!!
-oh, and did i mention the food!!

anyway folks, guests are arriving so i have to go and light the bonfire!\

Much love.

Old and news...home in the Yukon at last

Wow, I wrote this so long ago...I like it though, so meh!

Today, waiting for the bus I saw a drunk girl come strutting across the parking lot screaming at a group of equally loud "GANGSTA" boys...and I thought to myself "self, I hope I never get that desperate". Later on the bus I saw a woman. She grimaced when I asked if the seat next to her was taken, but she did move her backpack(inner monologue by Jill..."dude, cant you see my backpack is there....dude, cant you see im wearing a garbage bag!"). She was all in black...long garbage bag looking trench coat....black pants....black scrunchy. Her hair was combed back perfectly and she was wearing dark red lipstick. After grudgingly giving me the seat assigned to her backpack she immediately buried her nose in her harlequin romance novel...and I thought to myself..."self, I hope I never get that desperate!" I have decided I am very judgmental.

trip with niki was ... AWESOME!!!! so many awesome random adventures. It started off with a dead body on the side of the road (yes, a dead body! don’t question me!!!!) then the toaster and finally the homeless Santa driving backwards down the street...????
Nikis friends were so cool and hospitable and i had a blast. undersea gardens (I survived!!! victory!) shopping good food and some pretty cool conversations...also open mic night at belles.....oh baby!(am I right niki, am I right?)

anyway folks...im home and safe in the Yukon after a crazy adventure through the wilderness. I am so sorry to have missed nikis party...im sure you had a blast! I had a very good day in Vancouver on the 15th with my best friend Rae..(yes I have two best friends) we went and viewed the dead bodies again and we chatted like old times...ive missed her! The next day was INSANITY!!!!!! crazy wind storm wiped Vancouver out. we had to drive Rae to the airport.....it was so intense...lights were out everywhere and only one bridge was in commission. we had to go the long way and it was long and slow...then we saw a white car fling itself upon a large van tossing it in the air. Good thing both parties were relatively "okay". by this time Rae had 20 mins to catch her plane, but we did make it just in time. it took us all day to get to the airport and back! literally...(though we did some little things on the way back) seriously 30mins to go one block...made me think what would happen if something serious had happened. we rely so heavily on the infrastructure, we cant live without it.

anyway, that was followed by three days of steady driving through snow storms and the like...but finally I made it home to my family, my little dog, my warm bed and all the goodness the Yukon has to offer....I love the silence most...so peaceful!
went and picked up my brother today and I spent the day with both my brothers just chatting and being pestered by robin (I think he’s making up for lost time!)


Its crazy how much I miss you all...ive been listening to jillys cd and its making me nostalgic. I hope you are all having fun....but not too much fun without me!

oh my...this is all your fault

I cant believe i am doing this...i actually started one of these infernal bastard blogs (fantastic prom theme.) and now......what the fuck do i write? so intimidated by masterful bloggers i dont know what to do with myself! Alright folks, be kind to me, i am a first time blooger. This should be easy though...i enjoy so many kinds of random rambing (angry, sad, heartfelt, bored, confused, bla bla bla la de da)

After reading all of your likes i am tempted to do the same....argh ...im a sheep!!!! however, maybe, i will instead write out my hates

I HATE the sound of knuckles cracking(surprise), I hate waiting for something totally unaware of what that is, I hate the feeling that youve made a wrong choice and the world is passing you by, I hate anxiety more than anything and im so glad its no longer a daily companion. I will never play it down again, I hate lying in bed hoping for sleep to overtake you, knowing fullwell that you will not get a full nights sleep, I hate having to wear shoes, i hate socks with holes in them, I hate leaving places i adore, I hate knowing that everything will be alright but still feeling sick about it anyway, i hate the smell of laundry that wasnt dried right away, i hate eggnog, i hate sugar free ice cream (what a waste), I hate that i cant look at a menu the same way since going to culinary school, I hate how much tv i watch, i hate how bad at spelling i am, i hate-ed highschool, i hate losing touch with people i care about, i hate not having enough money to travel, i hate eating cartiledge(barf), I hate it when something/anything feels hopeless, I hate it when im scared (unless its in horror movies...especially bad ones), I hate that im a worrier and will make a terrible mother (always worried that my children are dead or mutilated), I hate that i am now considering having children at some point, i hate guinea pigs (what a waste of an animal God! stupid guinea pig noises!), I hate that i had to leave my dog at home, I hate knowing that its the best place for him, I hate that i am completely transparent, I hate that everytime i go to get my haircut its a good hair day, I hate that i dont go to church often enough, and i hate when i go to church and i realise WHY i dont go to church very often, I hate when i doubt my faith (but i love that i have doubted it...questioned it), I hate that i have so many unfinished projests, I hate going two years without getting on my skis, I hate when i dont get to talk to my parents every week, i hate being sick, i hate that i was embarrassed saying table for one( love getting used to saying it though...haha take that...not embarrased anymore), I hate being to scared to do worthwhile things, I hate having loved and lost( i dont know if i can agree with the stupid cliche), I hate that no one is quite him, i hate making out with random people because it makes me so aware of that, I hate skim milk, I hate letting amazing opportunities pass me by, I hate getting excited because a friend you havent heard from in so long has emailed you only to find its a stupid forward...and even worse if its a forward with a "message", I hate that i get suckered into stupid forwards, I hate when i realise i ve been an ass and didnt mean to, I hate that i rarely cook anymore, i hate cherry filled chocolates, i hate it when people dont try new food (this means you robin), i hate it when people are mean to people i care about, i hate when people i care about are mean to other people, I hate it when people are resigned, i hate that i gave up on my word of the day thing, I hate specious arguments, i hate going too long without an interesting debate/arguement, i hate people who think global warming is either a lie or inevitable, i hate that i cant afford a hybrd car, I hate that im a hypocrite, i hate job hunting, I hate that i have so many hates and these arent all of them

Anyway folks...sorry if that was a downer...i got started and i had to force myself to stop.