Just call me jannick the psychic!

so my prediction of new years eve was correct...though if that was the low part of the trip, then i am absolutely okay with that. I had a lot of fun, it just ended kind of oddly ( i should never have kids....don't worry I'll explain later).
i have decided that my new years resolution is to work on this worry issue, whatever that may mean. Certain aspects of it have completely left, while others remain in their entirety worse than ever. By that i mean, i no longer worry about everything. I don't find myself sitting in busy parking lots worried what i will do next, or worrying that i will be worried, or if i will fall asleep (which i never did). Thank god that is over. However i do work myself up over the smallest little things......for example...say your brother says hes going to go look for a phone and 45 mins later he doesn't appear. instead of me thinking he just got distracted(which my logical side admitted freely) I imagine that he is dead somewhere(perhaps hit by a car...or that he met his stupid drunk driving friend who inevitably crashes with Colin in the vehicle) It doesn't end there however...because once Ive imagined him dead...next i imagine the process i will have to go through if he is. Of course i could not go back to school. thus, i would sit here at home miserable and aching inside, pining on everything. I think of how angry i would be, and the people i would blame(Colin's drunk driving friend) and of course i would wine and complain to god...threatening every minute to stop believing....and all the while hating him.....so yes...apparently this is my dysfunctional side. SURPRISE! I should never have children!!!!

so the good side of my new years was up until that last 45mins. Robin and i went back to the desert for some kamikaze sledding! Then later in the evening I got together with my friend rae and some other good friends, Amanda and Stacey(hes a man...they are married). we went and had appys and visited some friends who were lounging at home. After tearing ourselves away from that crazy fun, we went and visited our old haunting ground (one of the hick est bars ever) for some good old Swamp donkeys(worse band ever...same line up they've had for 3 years!!!). Regardless, we got on the dance floor and ripped shit. along came my little brother and his friend. Colin got out on the dance floor with us and it was AWESOME!!!!! we were the envy of the whole bar (I'm joking...but I'm not!). An awesome New years until the i started working myself up! Thus my new years resolution.


anyway folks...the good news is that my functional side overpowers my dysfunctional side ....most times, and today is going to kick yesterdays ass!

I miss you all, and I'm jealous that you get to all be together. I'm back on the 7th and i will be ever so excited to see you.

much love