So its closing night tonight, and Power has come to its completion. Isnt it crazy how fast time is going? we have just over a month left. this must be especially weird for those people who are not returning next year. Strange thinking about what it will be like next year. Anyway, Im excited for the party tonight. It will be nice to hang out and dance with everyone.
so yesterday all us super cool ushers warmed up to the barenaked ladies singing..."if i had a million dollars." so folks heres the question....if you had a million dollars what would you do with it? more to the point would you be doing what you are doing now? and if not... is it only money thats holding you back?
If i had a million dollars? Yes, i think i would be here for the time being, though it would definately change my summer plans. In the long run, having a million dollars would probally not be the best thing for me
much love
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Friday, March 2, 2007
doubts and fears......just what everyone wants to read about!!
a few things are constantly on my mind these days.
FUTURE- i guess the biggest thing on my mind right now is this word. it, sums up so many little things. with this school year speeding by i have been thinking a lot these days of what comes next. i keep asking myself if i fucked up going back to school. i mean...i know why im doing this. i do. i know why but at the same time, from an outside perspective it was a really stupid move for me. and yet im going to finish it. i want to follow through with it and i want to get all i can out of it...so i have to suck it up and start being responsible. thats hard for me. its hard being almost 24 and having to convince myself to act like a grown up. i ve been sitting down lately and forcing myself to face some of these questions. ive been trying to discover my goals.
SUMMER- what am i going to do???? its the immediate future and i cant even figure it out. will i stay here, go home, go east, or go someplace else? so many possibilities......i have no idea!
MONEY- so...im broke. as of yesterday i have 65 dollars, and in one week 85 dollars will automatically come out of my account. plus, i owe brianna 45 dollars and a few other people a few bucks here and there. I owe my parents 7 hundred dollars,and im going to have to borrow more. I am starting work again on the 14th so at least i know i will have money coming in again, but still, its hard not to panic.
RELATIONSHIPS- so i guess i cant ignore this one forever. There are so many relationships im so incredibly happy with...and these are all you guys. Im so happy to be a part of this whole thing with all of you, and you are all amazing. also i have been making a better effort with my best friend and its been amazing. however, im lonely. i am looking for love just like everyone else and it does get discouraging.
anyway...sorry to be such a downer
i love you all
Lisa
FUTURE- i guess the biggest thing on my mind right now is this word. it, sums up so many little things. with this school year speeding by i have been thinking a lot these days of what comes next. i keep asking myself if i fucked up going back to school. i mean...i know why im doing this. i do. i know why but at the same time, from an outside perspective it was a really stupid move for me. and yet im going to finish it. i want to follow through with it and i want to get all i can out of it...so i have to suck it up and start being responsible. thats hard for me. its hard being almost 24 and having to convince myself to act like a grown up. i ve been sitting down lately and forcing myself to face some of these questions. ive been trying to discover my goals.
SUMMER- what am i going to do???? its the immediate future and i cant even figure it out. will i stay here, go home, go east, or go someplace else? so many possibilities......i have no idea!
MONEY- so...im broke. as of yesterday i have 65 dollars, and in one week 85 dollars will automatically come out of my account. plus, i owe brianna 45 dollars and a few other people a few bucks here and there. I owe my parents 7 hundred dollars,and im going to have to borrow more. I am starting work again on the 14th so at least i know i will have money coming in again, but still, its hard not to panic.
RELATIONSHIPS- so i guess i cant ignore this one forever. There are so many relationships im so incredibly happy with...and these are all you guys. Im so happy to be a part of this whole thing with all of you, and you are all amazing. also i have been making a better effort with my best friend and its been amazing. however, im lonely. i am looking for love just like everyone else and it does get discouraging.
anyway...sorry to be such a downer
i love you all
Lisa
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