a few things are constantly on my mind these days.
FUTURE- i guess the biggest thing on my mind right now is this word. it, sums up so many little things. with this school year speeding by i have been thinking a lot these days of what comes next. i keep asking myself if i fucked up going back to school. i mean...i know why im doing this. i do. i know why but at the same time, from an outside perspective it was a really stupid move for me. and yet im going to finish it. i want to follow through with it and i want to get all i can out of it...so i have to suck it up and start being responsible. thats hard for me. its hard being almost 24 and having to convince myself to act like a grown up. i ve been sitting down lately and forcing myself to face some of these questions. ive been trying to discover my goals.
SUMMER- what am i going to do???? its the immediate future and i cant even figure it out. will i stay here, go home, go east, or go someplace else? so many possibilities......i have no idea!
MONEY- so...im broke. as of yesterday i have 65 dollars, and in one week 85 dollars will automatically come out of my account. plus, i owe brianna 45 dollars and a few other people a few bucks here and there. I owe my parents 7 hundred dollars,and im going to have to borrow more. I am starting work again on the 14th so at least i know i will have money coming in again, but still, its hard not to panic.
RELATIONSHIPS- so i guess i cant ignore this one forever. There are so many relationships im so incredibly happy with...and these are all you guys. Im so happy to be a part of this whole thing with all of you, and you are all amazing. also i have been making a better effort with my best friend and its been amazing. however, im lonely. i am looking for love just like everyone else and it does get discouraging.
anyway...sorry to be such a downer
i love you all
Lisa
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Awww I love you Lisa. Things will work out though and from what you told me in the lobby yesterday, things with your friend will be just fine as well. As far as I can see you are a strong person and things will end up all right. Especially when we watch Frogs...
*hugs* I totally know how you feel. One of these days us broke, un-coupled types should pool our change and pig out on ice cream ^__^
Love, Love, LOVE you! The future is fucking scary, if you ever need someone there for ya to face it with, I'm your wing girl =) Much love my dear Lisa, you are fabulous and a half.
oh man do i ever hate the term wing girl.....things always get better...totally cliche thing to say...but its true...i am kinda in the same boat right now
liiisa!
don't leave in the summer. you have to stay here for ever and ever!! (unles you go to hawaii. then i might forgive you.)
i like kaitlyn's idea of icecream. does my complete lack of coupledom make up for my non-brokeness?
well lisa i saw that you were having a bit of a down time so i talked with satan and he said it would be cool if you wanted to chill with me and him and a few demons i mean who knows mabye you will hit it off with him he's not so bad and wants to get to know you
luv ya lisa
I think so Tasia. And the coupled-but-rediculously broke people can come to. Well, I guess anyone that is unhappy... or even the happy ones who want to help cheer everyone up.. hahahaha
Lisa,
U are amazing and i know u will figure it out. Don't stress too much. Go for a walk to pipers, listen to jazz or just some interpreted dancin and i know it will come to u. I love you and look up to you so much.
Love and cigars
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