There is one week left of school! I am sure you are all aware of this. It is not meant to be an informative statement, but rather expressive of the anxiety which presents itself to me in this moment.
I have not yet finished my essay for theatre history. (It gets harder as the days pass) I have not yet made my tape for stagecraft. I have not yet searched for a job to entertain me once school is over. I have not yet made plans for the majority of my summer. I have not yet decided what i want to do next. I have not resigned myself to the goodbyes i will shortly have to make. In short, I am not ready. Last year at this time I was so ready! This year i am drifting. I think its partially because i am staying here until june and havent yet had to abandon my roots here. Part of me is in transition to leave and part of me is nesting...it is confusing even to me. I think a big part of this duality of mind is that fact that i want to move ON not backwards, and so whitehorse doesnt present itself as such a great option for the end of my semester. I want to move on but am sure of what that means now.
not that it is new for me to be indescive... an overwhelming majority of my emotional state is spent in this state of mind. Something for me to continue to work on.
I have applied to UVIC for the fall (art history) We will see.
Much love
Lisa
Thursday, April 3, 2008
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enrollment is down across the country. hurray for more chance of getting in!
i think art history might be really good for you, lisa. you always seem inspired/excited to learn about it.
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